somehow, alive.

i made it out.

rhodes has held me for the past...

12 days

it was not as bad as you might think.  he tortured me with a knife and some machine that gave off a lot of heat...i think it was a rice cooker.  but only for the first two days.  afterwards all he did was try to get in my head.  try to convince me to go back to Him.  told me He was all I had left.

i wont.  ever.  i wont insult june's memory like that.  surprisingly, after the third day, rhodes was gone for the rest of my captivity.  i was too injured to escape, though.  until earlier today.  his large minion was too slow to catch me.  now here i am.

i have to stop rhodes.  i know he's planning something.  he spoke on the phone to someone...i heard him mention montreal.  what does that mean?  could be where he's gone.

also, im trying to stop talking with...how did he put it?  "cryptic bullshit."  it's hard.  doing anything "ordinary" is hard.  it's still almost impossible for me to talk to anyone face to face.  i lost most of my identity to Him.  now all i have are a few shattered memories to cling to.

but cling to them i will.  i wont be a doll anymore.  im human.  i will fight him.