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it's so cold

He captures all in His gaze.  no matter where i turn the eye is on me

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you think you know fear?  every single moment He draws close i remember the years i spent with His hands holding My strings.  every whisper of breath would give me away, if He couldn't find me by my thoughts

its useless

we are all His whether we know it or not

every move you make is one He allows you to

every thought you think is one He permits you to have

defiance and bravado exist so long as He desires it

and when that moment arrives, theyre gone

snrgherah killme

please

killme

somehow, alive.

i made it out.

rhodes has held me for the past...

12 days

it was not as bad as you might think.  he tortured me with a knife and some machine that gave off a lot of heat...i think it was a rice cooker.  but only for the first two days.  afterwards all he did was try to get in my head.  try to convince me to go back to Him.  told me He was all I had left.

i wont.  ever.  i wont insult june's memory like that.  surprisingly, after the third day, rhodes was gone for the rest of my captivity.  i was too injured to escape, though.  until earlier today.  his large minion was too slow to catch me.  now here i am.

i have to stop rhodes.  i know he's planning something.  he spoke on the phone to someone...i heard him mention montreal.  what does that mean?  could be where he's gone.

also, im trying to stop talking with...how did he put it?  "cryptic bullshit."  it's hard.  doing anything "ordinary" is hard.  it's still almost impossible for me to talk to anyone face to face.  i lost most of my identity to Him.  now all i have are a few shattered memories to cling to.

but cling to them i will.  i wont be a doll anymore.  im human.  i will fight him.

cant

eyeswilllie

dont believthem

the serpent isnot

he

Hush now, darling little Rae.  You and I have a LOT to catch up on...